Alcohol lubricated the rough edges of social interactions; I never needed it to enjoy sex but I did need it to handle large groups of people. This is why, seven years off of all substances, I faced the prospect of attending my first orgy with near panic and a lot of questions…
Read MoreI spend more time questioning what I've done because of "my gut" and whether the feelings I'm feeling are "my gut" than I do trusting and relying on "my gut"…
Read MoreThis story is also the subject of the SEX COMMUNICATION podcast, Episode 35 but told a bit differently… check them both out for the full picture.
Read MoreIt’s a funny thing about shaving your head — you realize real fast exactly how much of a buffer your hair has been between you and oodles of things you never before considered…
Read MoreI lost my virginity to a prostitute. I heard a statistic about this sort of thing once, and it seemed like a large percentage, but I’m not just a statistic. There’s a story behind the experience. I believe this experience of losing my virginity to a hooker is indicative, pun intended, of something bigger. ..
Read MoreAfter all my good intentions, the whole thing came out just like every other fucking crowdfunding video I’d ever seen…
Read MoreThese days I’m leaning more and more towards doing journal-style posts, mostly because I haven’t felt capable of much else! To that end, why not document the mix of extreme highs, lows and intermittent plateaus of building a start-up [ahem, media empire]?
Read MoreAs of this moment (1/31/19), one full-length episode has been edited, produced and published; a second “QUICKIE” episode featuring sex audio will hit tomorrow evening…
Read MoreI’ve always considered myself to be pretty normal when it comes to sex; open-minded and adventurous for sure, but in a very normal way. It’s only been in the last few weeks that I’ve considered the possibility that I may be more subversive than I thought…
Read MoreIt has been 12 months since I began this venture of carving out a section of the interwebs; 12 months of extreme highs, painful lows, crises of faith, depression naps, carb binges, crying jags, paralysis… and I wouldn’t change a thing.
Read MoreIt's always the same fight. Be nice, don't act out, be gentle, versus — you know what, fuck that shit…
Read MoreThere’s a pull from the center of my throat into the darkest depths of earth. It hurts. I’m fluttery and panicky all around that still drag. I’m bolted to the ground…
Read MoreDoes anything ever feel complete? What counts as success? Or finished?
Read MoreWhat’s the point? Why bother? I ask myself these questions often. And yet I keep going...
Read MoreEven before reading Marie Kondo's now infamous book, The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up, I had been performing periodic purges of my closet…
Read MoreNot too long ago, I wrote about the act of shaving my head — what led to the decision, how it happened, how I reacted... Well it's been over five months since I first cut all my hair off and I've learned some things…
Read MoreSometimes in casual conversation I reference the fact that I'm going to be 40. This started when I was 37 and it seemed healthy, a way to get myself comfortable with the idea. But somewhere along the way I began having to stop and think, how old am I really?…
Read MoreChange is tough. It’s uncomfortable, inconvenient and just an all-around pain in the ass. I have struggled with change in a million and one different ways and what has helped me the most is…
Read MoreThe birds are starting to chirp outside my window. I've only just lay down to sleep. I roll over in disgust, turning my back on the dawn attempting to break through the space between my heavy curtains…
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